Its a damn cold night...................So many of the good things from the past that simply added happiness and meaning to my life have disappeared. Past inspirations and dreams all blown apart and away. Past ideas and hopes all shrivelled up and stepped upon. Past comfort now rendered questionable. Everything has to change because nothing is the same anymore. Im past having heartaches since 2006. Nobody understands why I have this underlying issue all the time. And they never will.

The past and all its riches are gone. I can't look back or feel anything about it anymore. But I have a future to carve out. And I am damn well gonna push it in the direction of the ultimatum that I have set for myself since I was a little boy.